the best weekend so far.

+ we went bowling with brianna and jordan.

josh and i made a bet.

loser pays for dinner on saturday.

+ saturday joshua and i went to the 

byu christmas around the world dance performance

he misses dancing almost as much as i miss golf in winter.

+ then we went to the Cocoa Bean

for cocoa and cupcakes.

we were enjoying ourselves.

then josh looked up...

things got super awkward after that.

they didnt!

we kiss all the time.

i've always wanted to be kissed under a mistletoe.

so we did. 

this boy...

in august he kissed me in the rain.

he's making all of my dreams come true.

+ then we signed up for classes 

+ joshua took me to outback because i kicked his trash at bowling

+ then josh watched some movie that was a mixture of 

transformers, men in black and iron man

while i slept. 

= heres to a fiancé who will carry me through the snow so my shoes don't get wet, sparkly snow, and sweet potato fries. 

somebody's been eating my cheese sticks and fruit snacks.

+ but its okay. only 10 more days of logan.

its official. i'm moving home on the 13th of December.

+ apartment hunting blows. 

if anyone knows of somewhere cute, small and cheap

that we could rent we are accepting suggestions.

+ Joshua, my fiance, took me on a date.
we went to Provo Beach Resort.
& we golfed. he was great. i was awful.

+ Temple Square on saturday

before the BYU vs USU game

byu won.

of course. 

that's what you get when you have mean fans

who cant even stop chanting for a prayer.

rude. 

+sometimes we kiss like fish.
we decided to not kiss for you.

= here's to finals, no food and deep cleaning. 

this is all happening..

+ last monday my darling Joshua asked me on a date for Friday (1 November 2013)
i, being completely smitten by him, quickly said yes
he told me we would be the subjects for a friend's photography midterm,
we would be going to temple square and we needed to look nice.

+ friday finally comes, i drive to Orem.
i get "nice" looking and we head to Cory & Missy's (the photography student)
when we arrive Corey announces that he has purchased a new video camera
& he will be recording the events of the evening so he can learn how to use it.

+ we drive to sandy so we can ride trax to temple square.
the camera is put to use right away and photos are being taken.
we take pictures by the assembly hall
then the tabernacle
we then make our way around to the front of the temple.

+ Missy asks for pictures of just me
then Cory calls us over because he has found another spot.
he tells Josh and I to go sit over on the edge of an enclosed stream
and to have a normal conversation.

+ we sit and talk.
josh says, "one day we'll be able to go in [the temple] for real together."
i agree.

+ josh pulls out his phone, which has pictures of a special ring i had picked out.
he says, "do you still want his ring?"
i say, "i do. i really do."
he says, "well, lets make your dreams a reality."
and pulls out the real ring and hold it next to the phone.

+ i turn my head. this isn't supposed to be happening for another month.
it can't be real.
but it is. quite real.

+ he gets down on one knee and says,
"Ashley Beth Billings, will you marry me?"
i stammer out a mixture of "yes" and "uh huh"
he teases me and says, "is that a yes?"
i smile and nod.

+ he grabs my right hand and i pull it away.
his face drops.
i smile, tell him, "wrong hand" and hand him my left hand.
then he put the ring on the correct hand.

= heres to us, we're in love & engaged!

the view from here.

+he's my favorite

= heres to sundays, lovers and in season flowers.

being apart isn't easy.

+ on october 19th joshua and i celebrated our 2 month anniversary.

we got grilled cheese samiches

that looked like birds.

and we watched the Saratov Approach

josh says its the best movie he's ever seen.

he highly recommends it. 

+ brianna came and visited me this week.

she came to logan with me on sunday

and took my car to idaho today. 

i'm stranded

there's nothing else to do in Logan 

so we ate.

 + then we had a Princess Diaries party.

we ate all the foods that they eat in the movie.

(well those that are available outside of Genovia)

+ and we matched.

on accident.

neither of wearing shirts for the sports we actually play.

its fine.

= heres to grease fires, pears and golf.

are we surprised? not really.

my missionary called me today.

hermana atoa

from the airport and an unknown number.

so did i answer it?

of course not.

i'm terrible.

answer your phone peeps.

if its a salesman hang up.

but it could be your missionary.

=heres to voicemail and ketchup explosions #classic

it seems i've grown up.

moving out and going to college isn't all its made out to be.
its really not that great.

no money

no food

no retail therapy

its just you,
your psycho roommate
and your text books.

but its not the money, food or clothes that i miss.

its the people. these people.

= heres to bitter goodbye's, sweet hello's, and rosi golan.

what have we come to?

Me

"Lauren Sigman is hilarious."

Callie

"Who?"

"Lauren Sigman...."

"Laurenita_?"

"Yup.... thats her Instagram name."

"Oh, then uh huh! "

= heres to social media, high school acquaintances, and ugly windows. 

i should just snapchat my blog.

Welcome to Logan.

where you have to wear your winter parka in september

and you're still numb.

my roommate blames the cold weather on me because i've been listening to christmas music

like this.

+ i took this good looking man golfing.

for the first time.

he was phenomenal. 

+ he's a seductive Brazilian model.

and mine.

+ i swore i'd never take a pic like this.

but it was an accident.

clearly. my face i not picture taking worthy.

but its cute. 

enjoy our pda.

+ josh made callie & i dinner.

it was delicious. 

thats his secret pasta noodle.

+ they're about 5 years late,

but callie & josh can plank.

= heres to long tees, candle light picnics & hot cocoa with coffee creamer.

the best of days. so far.

we got Brianna back!!

"Mission Accomplished" Say 'hi emily.' hot thing she is.

meet Josh. he's not for sale.

he's mine. all mine.

Joshua. 

we are quite the same person actually.

unfortunately he is in orem.

i am in logan.

(not like y'all would know that because i haven't posted in forever...)

he has come up two times to surprise me. 

the first time i was suspicious. 

the second time

(tonight)

i had no idea.

he brought me flowers to try to ease my anger.

i don't like it when people spend money on me. 

or drive 2 hours to see me for 3 hours...

this is just a small portion. 

the rest are scattered through my apt.

this one is definitely a keeper.

you'll be seeing him around here a lot. 

here's to 40-hour work weeks, late nights & early mornings. 

i've been busy.

+ i've had somewhat of a social life these last few weeks.
this pic just describes my life most of the time.
i'm okay with it really.

+ because of this spark in sociality,
i've been neglecting my blog.
and instagram.
and my camera in general.

- Millionaire Shortbread from The London Market. Delicious - before the ONE DIRECTION CONCERT - during the ONE DIRECTION CONCERT. yes, our seats were this close. hashtag 5th row - 

- This is not real. hashtag dibs - I was forced to eat this at work. Maple bar & bacon. weird - the one and only picture i took at my best friends wedding. i'm awful - courtesy of Grace Helbig - 

=heres to best friends - new and old, picture books & packing.

is this love?

this does not surprise me. i love these girls. 

this goes out to Amber

+ welcome to working in the financial aid office.
where idiots think the government should pay for their schooling.
more wasted tax dollars.

+ a student called me awesome today.
that was a first.

= here's to working in call centers, angry people, and positive attitudes.

100.

+ this my dears, is my 100th post. exciting is it not?
i've been putting this off because i have no idea what to write.
and i've had a somewhat normal sleep schedule lately...
but i've decided to write anyway.

+my bff and i went to a 20's party last night.
we looked hot. i curled my hair and it actually looked decent.
ignore the fact that my head looks 10 times bigger than my body.

"I"m black."

+ these songs.

#1

#2

+ saw this cover photo. greatest ever. 

+ callie and i went on a hike. big baldy i believe.

gorgeous.

we saw from spanish fork to american fork. 

+ 1 month until my concert. 

+ 59 days until i go to logan.

+ 84 days until Brianna comes home. 

= heres to pearls, iVideo, Thor, and smoky eyes.